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When Mommy got pregnant she expected to go through some changes, in many ways those changes are signs that everything is working as it should inside. Still those changes at times can be somewhat of a double edged sword. Mommy's best friend is also pregnat and due 3 months ahead of her. She read a book on pregnancy that mentioned the idea of greiving, greiving the loss of your former self. While Mommy had never considered that concept before pregnancy now after being pregnant for a bit she understands that idea a little more. For starters when you are pregnant you gain weight, thats a given and you want to gain weight because it means your baby is growing and you are providing for it as you should but its still hard on the psyche at times when you step on the scale and see that weight escalate. Mommy has always been blessed in the weight department. She has never worried about what she ate or the amount and in many ways this was a small pride point for her. Since September 28th Mommy has steadily put on weight and as of today, November 8th she has put on 10lbs, 2lbs in just the last week. While naturally Mommy wants to gain weight for Jellybean its also hard at times for her to realize that putting on weight is a lot easier now then it has been in the past. Also many things that happen during pregnancy don't necessarily change back after the baby is born so in the back of her mind Mommy doe selfishly worry at times that weight, a non issue before, might become one afterwards. Another aspect of pregnancy that has affected Mommy is her memory. Mommy never heard of the term "pregnancy brain" before becoming pregnant but even in ten short weeks Mommy has learned that this is indeed a factor. For Mommy this is a sour spot as she use to have a wonderful memory which she prided herself on and relied on greatly. Since becoming pregnant Mommy is super forgetful, so much so that Daddy who has a lousy memory , as commented on Mommy's forgetfulness. It got so bad that one day Mommy lost her purse at work 4 different times and when she left she didn't even remember that she had forgotten it until someone came out with it. That was a rare case naturally but now because of this anytime Daddy wants Mommy to do something he also texts her a reminder. Mommy does miss her memory though and realizes it a small sacrafice for a healthy happy Jellybean but it doesn't mean she doesn't miss it from time to time.
Overall this post is not about sadness rather instead its the idea that small sacrifices are sometimes a prt of life and the reward for them can be worth anything in the end.